Letter to baby #1

Hi baby!

Yesterday morning your daddy and I found out I was pregnant with you! I was so nervous to take the test because I knew it was going to say I was pregnant. On the other hand I was a little nervous that if it said I wasn't pregnant I was going to be sad.

As soon as I was done taking the test, it showed POSITIVE! I didn't even have to wait 3 minutes to see that you were growing inside me! I was shaking, excited, nervous, and scared. Your daddy came in the bathroom so I held up the test and said, "we're gonna have a baby!" He smiled and gave me a big hug. We stood there for a while then I said, "are you freaked out?" he said "yeah, a little." I began thinking, why did we start trying, I'm not ready to be a mom, it's going to hurt so bad, I'm going to be so tired all the time, my body is going to constantly ache, how can we afford this, why did we think this was a good idea?!

Then I learned that you were the size of an appleseed. There was an apple on my desk at work so I cut it up, got a seed out, took a picture and sent it to your dad with the words "this is the size of our baby - the size of an appleseed!" He said "scary" I said "why" he said "because it's so tiny and delicate." That's when it sunk in. You are growing inside me. I am going to be a Momma. The rest of the day felt like a dream. Nothing seemed to matter at work except you growing inside me. The cool part is my body knew what it was doing even though I had no clue!!

When I picked your dad up from work he filled me in about all of the money and insurance stuff. He started calling you "he" I said "honey, we don't know yet..." but he insisted on calling you "he, him, boy" all night. I sure hope you're a boy so you're not traumatized by your father :)

Over the weekend your dad and I talked about how we want to tell the family while we decorated the Christmas tree. We didn't know for sure I was pregnant, but we both had a good hunch that you were there! We are going to tell your grandparents by filling a glass ornament with pink and blue ribbon then write on the ball "Baby Baker, coming July 2013" and give it to them as a gift. I'd love to record their reactions so we can always remember how excited they were to find out about you! I have all sorts of ideas as to how to tell people. It will be hard to wait to tell them, but the hardest wait is over. We know you're going to be in our arms in just 9 short months.

Love, Momma