Kicks on Video!

Of course when I got the camera out you stopped kicking as much, but I did manage to get some little moves! Just look at the freckle on my belly, and don't blink!

The song is called American Baby by Dave Matthews...I thought it was fitting

Letters to baby #15

Baby girl,
For whatever reason today I became a little worried about you. These irrational fears and silly snowball scenarios are nothing new for me. They are something that have become less frequent in my adult life - but they still show up every now and again. 

Anyway, while at work I became fearful for your health. I was worried that if you have a disability, that I might not be able to handle it, or that it would cause stress on your dad and I. I reminded myself that God is bigger than a disability or irrational fears and He won't give us anything we can't handle.

I started to pray for you. I put my hands on my belly and quietly spoke this verse "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by payer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." - Philippians 4:6. I said it again and emphasized WITH THANKSGIVING, and you gave me a little kick. I just stopped on that phrase for a moment and smiled to myself. With THANKSGIVING, I will praise God and honor whatever He chooses to give your daddy and I.

Love 

Mommy

Letters to baby #14

My sweet baby girl,
Last night was the first time your daddy felt you kick! I was sitting on the love seat and could somewhat feel you moving around. I moved to the couch so I could lay flat and your dad sat beside me and put his hand on my belly.

You didn't budge.

It's almost as if you knew I wanted you to move, so you didn't do anything! I'm going to say you get that from your father :)

So I did what any "good" mother would do, and I had a small bowl of ice cream with chocolate syrup! About 5 minutes after I devoured the ice cream you went nuts! I very quietly called you dad over again, as to not disturb you. He stood this time (thinking I was just silly and he wouldn't be able to feel anything). Within seconds of his hand on my belly you gave him one of the biggest kicks I've felt so far. He gasped then looked at my belly then one of the sweetest smiles flashed across his face.

That was the first interaction he's had with you and it just filled my heart and eyes with so much love and joy for our new little family.

You kept on moving the rest of the night and continued to go crazy when we were in bed. Your daddy put his hand on my belly while we were laying next to each other and the kick you gave him made him jump! He said "wow, that scared me!" You gave a few small kicks, nothing he could feel, then the 3 of us drifted off to sleep.

It is so amazing being able to feel you moving, jumping, kicking and punching! I know in just a few short weeks it's going to be a painful, but this has to be one of the coolest feeling I've ever experienced!

I love you my little wild child,
Mommy

Letters to baby #12

Hello my little one,
Last night (a Friday night) your dad and I went to Menards to buy a new fire detector/carbon monoxide detector because our old one broke two nights ago. We also picked up a curtain rod holder and baskets for mommy's new closet, paint swatches for YOUR ROOM!, and a door bell. We needed a new humidifier (because we're both sick!) and we didn't think they had the best prices, so we went to Meijer, they didn't have as great of a deal as we thought Wal-Mart would so we ran there. We found a humidifier, I wanted to walk through the baby section (your dad was 100% OK looking around there!) then we went home. I put away my baskets, set up the humidifier while your dad hooked up the fire detector and door bell. All on a Friday night!

I am telling you all of that because I truly enjoyed our evening. Before I had your daddy in my life, I would have rolled my eyes at the thought of running those lame errands, and actually spending money on these boring things!

I have learned that when you're married to your best friend, and when you're 100% satisfied with your life, you don't mind spending time (even a Friday night) and money on the tiny "boring" necessities of life. I am no longer trying to overwhelm my life with meaningless things to fulfill a sadness that only security and contentment can fulfill.

And I love it.

We went to bed and were talking a little, like we usually do then said our "night, love yous." About 5 minutes later I felt some pops and flutters in my stomach, like I usually do I put my hand on my lower belly. This time I felt a little <kick!> on my hand. I opened my eyes, gasped a little, smiled really big, and so badly wanted to scream at your dad. I didn't because he has this magical power of falling asleep about 2 minutes after our "night, love yous." I chose to let him sleep and wait to share the story with him in the morning. I was so excited to feel you say "night mommy, love you!" that I just thought this is the coolest feeling in the world. And prayed and prayed that you will continue growing big and strong.

I also pray that someday you find someone that you can spend your Friday nights with buying smoke detectors and humidifiers and being completely satisfied with such a "lame" night.

I love you baby,
Mommy