Baby girl
I can't promise this letter will be well written, but I'm writing to you because you need to know how deeply, head over heals, in love I am with you. And it's been awhile since I've written an update. I need to put to words how wonderful you are and how precious you are to me.
Alaythea Grace, my sweet sweet baby girl. For so long I prayed for you. So many years I've longed to be a mommy and despite the hard first 3 months - it was worth it.
Every second.
I wouldn't change a single thing.
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3 Days Old
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The first few weeks you were home, while I put you to bed I would just hold you, rock you, and sit there crying tears of complete and utter joy for my healthy, beautiful baby girl. (It also may have had something to do with my hormones all out of whack and running on about 4 hours of sleep, but there was a true joy, that I have never felt until I held you for the first time) I thanked God over and over for blessing me with the ability to have a child, to be able to have a healthy pregnancy and delivery, the ability to nurse, and to hold you.
You my sweet baby have filled my heart with so much joy and love that it often feels so full that it overflows. And the only way the bursting pure joy can escape me is with happy tears. My heart just can't stand it.
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| One Month Old |
One of my favorite things to do was (and still is) to put my cheek on your face and smell your skin. That has to be one of the most beautiful things about being able to rock you to sleep.
You turned 2 months and started to get a lot more head strength.
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| Daddy helping you burp |
You also had more peaceful waking moments.
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You started to smile at me
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| Helping me make apple crisp You started to soak in your environment and really start to concentrate |
Your daddy and I continued to fall madly, deeply, in love with you
And can you blame us...just look at those eyes.
At three months old you still were not taking regular or long naps. Some days I had to hold you just so you could sleep. At times I got frustrated because I couldn't get housework done. But one thing I tried very hard not to do is let housework or any other work come in between time with you. I keep hearing this will go fast that I'm always trying my hardest to put you first and soak in every moment I get with you. You won't always be this small and you won't always need me.
So I let you fall asleep nursing and I'd hold you.
And I held you.
You started to develop a charming, sweet personality
At four months your development seems to have really taken off. You have rolled from your belly to back and back to belly. You're not a fan of it, but you've done it! You can sit with help. You're so strong! You're LAUGHING! Oh are you laughing. It has to be one of the best sounds in the world. You also enjoy when I read you books!
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Christmas Morning |
You're five months old now and I feel like so much time has passed. So much I want to teach you. So much I want to change in myself before you learn from my bad habits. I don't want to have any regrets or missed out time with you. I will try my hardest to document all the special moments with you.
I love you my Gracie girl
